Sunday, January 4, 2015

Life vs Web Life - CurvyKitty Retired

Hello all. It's been a few weeks since I was last here or did anything even in the way of advertising for my site. Camera Man has had off work since the 20th of December 2014 until well tomorrow (the first real working week of the year of 2015).

We've had a wonderful time just getting to know each other again, being lazy, didn't bother with any real holiday plans or big meals or presents. We did buy a few 'us' things like a new LCD tv, I got a new tablet a couple months ago, we bought a new network 4tg (4000gig) hard drive on Wednesday and stuff like that. I went to bed at 11pm on New Years Eve and slept through the night without even waking for the fireworks or music.

Life the last 6 months or so has been one very very big roller coaster for me. A bit over a month ago I started seeing a psychiatrist (the ones who can prescribe medications vs the ones that can't) due to the fact that I was still having quite a bit of problems with my short term memory and that I was still stressing out over the smallest of things be it from loud noises, kitty having problems or even something as simple as going to a store with my mother.

I was put on an anti-depressant drug and exception of some minor stomach issues, it seems to be helping. I'm cooping better with stress, I'm not as jumpy, my mind is clearer and I'm having a lot less mood swings. On top of that I'm not binge/boredom eating, I'm not really craving 'bad' foods atm and even have gotten on a semi decent sleeping pattern as well as sleeping sounder/better.

However, that is where this last few weeks has come back to here. Between Camera Man and I, we have chosen to put Curvy-Kitty.com into retirement for the most part. I'm sure there will still be an occasional set of photos here and there but there will no longer be any regular weekly updates. There are currently over 17,000 photos and over 300 videos from the past decade of time that you are welcome to come and see but still with a membership. The site will remain for those that still want to see my works but the time and BBW world being what it is today, is not something I wish to be part of any more.

I love my body, I love what I look like, I love how I move and I love my sexuality but I hate what the adult BBW world has turned into and it really does sadden me. It is no longer about loving who you are and what you are but going to the other extreme of gaining more and more weight, talking about shit like how one wants to be immobile and waited on hand and foot, how one is force feeding themselves protein shakes just to gain weight. That is *NOT* what being proud of being a BBW is about... you are *not* proud to be who you are how you are but trying to change who you are. I think it's a pure problem of men showing this as the 'new' fetish and it's becoming too much.

I have had several requests for eating/stuffing videos/photos and as much as I try to get into it, I simply can't. I am a glamour girl. I like my lingerie, heels, pantyhose and sexy stuff. I'm not here to show off how big I can get, how much I can stuff down my throat in the way of food... although I don't mind sharing my special stuff with you all like the posts I have here about my sushi night with Camera Man or my afternoon out with a lunch in the car, I simply have no desire to play into this fatter fatter fatter and get more fat era that is in the BBW world. I have no desire and it makes it hard to feel sexy when you are left out in the cold due to this fact.

It's been a fun ride, it's been a wonderful time, I have TONS of lingerie still on hand that I have hardly tried on much less shot anything in and perhaps in time I will shoot more but for now, I've got bigger real life things to worry about. Soon (the end of this month) I will finally be allowed to go back to work or in this case for back to looking for work... I'm looking forward to that so much. But that on itself also means a whole new set of challenges that I have to face head on and work through. I can't be worrying about what people online are thinking or worrying about how much advertising I'm doing or what set of photos I'll be shooting or when/where I'll be shooting it.

I thank you all for your support this last 10years of time, old and new fans alike. I will always be around, my email is still here, I am still socially active, I'm on Facebook still playing FarmVille2 mostly and in general still here, just not with my site active.

BIGGGGGG hugs and kisses to everyone! Be cool, enjoy 2015 and I'll come posting once and a while.

Best regrades and all the happiness in this new year and those to come! CK